You should know better than to beat yourself up for NOTHING! You have so much opportunities that lie ahead! If you let yourself be more aware of all the possibilities of your entire being no matter how great the the barriers are, you'll realize that those painful thoughts are rendered fruitless! Stop focusing on what could be wrong and let yourself chill! You are still growing! You still have time right now!

Do you see that the negativity is damaging you from the inside and out? Snap out of it!  Focus on what you need to do to be better. Don't  even think about what others may think or say! This is your life and you have ONLY 1 LIFE. Make it a good one! Make every moment count even if the end may come. Even if the end may come a part of you will remain alive infinitely....

Failing does not mean that you will trip and fall into a dead end! You should see those mistakes as lessons for you to learn and grow not matter how painful they may be. You should be thankful for all of those lessons youhave learned over time and all of those people who have helped guided you on your journey. In the future you could use those 'methods/guides' to help others go into a more brighter path. Haven't you seen how many people have done great things for others? There are people out there who fail over and over, hundreds of times, but they never give up.

What do you mean you don't deserve to live? You have all of this moment, right here and now to change and improve! This life is a gift to you. You should use it wisely to help the future generations become more brighter. You have the ability to do things with such 'greatness'!

... So you want to die, eh? What do you think would happen after that? You think that all of your worries will disappear? You think that it's the only way to your happiness? Yes such a good feeling, huh? STOP thinking about it! It's not worth it. After you're gone, you won't get to experience all the things that you've wanted. You will miss out, Silly Goose! :bademoticon:
It's like you're chasing and hollering for nothing, around in a circle that never seems to end! You're so stuck in those dream-like thoughts that pound into your brain!

Got haters? Ignore them, and avoid them. They are not worth your time.
Every single 'wrong thing' is NOT your fault. Sometimes you can't really control what's outside, especially from other people around you! You think no one cares? I bet that there's at least one person out there thinking about you right now. Probably wondering if you're ok... Like me! Seriously! Don't you think it's a little annoying to keep thinking about all of those 'dark things?'